hehehe....don't freak about the chinese writings on this page....I was going to make this into my Chinese blog but obviously Upsaid kinda wretch everything by not providing the free service...but that's okay....I'll type in both Chinese and English.....hopefully.....and yes, I'm arcticflames...arctic-chan...just in a different name ^^

hehehe...sorry, I forgot to say, I'll be taking mid-term in a week so I won't be online much lately. And I promise you guys that I'll post my pictures after the exam ^_~

我想我最近有好一些了吧
自從上次無意中流漏出我酸酸的心情
我應該有好些了
我明白我每次看到他們為何都有一陣痛
因為剛好刺到了我的傷
我知道我的過去和他們不同
我知道現在的我只有未來可以建立
所以當他們回憶這小學、國中、高中
我只能安安靜靜的聆聽
現在終於有人肯跟我談現在、未來
我真的很高興
可是我會和他們離得越來越遠嗎?

I know that all of us are under a lot of stress lately due to something called mid-term. I was trying to help my friend in biostatistics, because she didn't understand the concept. But she kinda just brushed me off like I was bothering her. I replied rather awkwardly to her so I'm not sure whether she's taking that personally now but sometimes I just don't understand her. She already is not understanding biostatics very well but she still wants to skip the lecture....*shrugs* oh well....I did try to help but she didn't let me. Does she think that just because I'm an ABC that I'm not as good as everybody else? Me don't know. I don't think that's the case though. Whatever. I did explain the concept to some guys....who was supposedly had taken statistics before.....but.....heh.....obviously he forgot everything about it -.-;;; Is it possible that because we are close friends so that's why she doesn't ask me for help? I don't know whether that's the right logic though......nevermind, let's not care about it, afterall, I'm a horrible person at explaining math concept...not to mention explaining in Chinese. It was amazing that my other close friend understood me when I was explaining stats....hahahaha.....

Anyway, I was browsing other people's blogs when I stumbled on this community. It seems like a fun place so I decided to join. So here's a little about me. I just had my nineteenth birthday in March and I'm a college freshman majoring in dentistry. I'm Chinese American and currently studying abroad. And for my name....hahaha....I go by 'arcticflames' online with all my fanfictions, poems, and stories. Call me 'arc,' 'arctic,' or make up a name for me if you like ^^

I'm going to be taking mid-terms next week so I won't be online for awhile....anyway, this is something I wrote a long time ago, feel free to make any suggestion.

I don't need no more
3.26.03

He drinks Coca-cola
every morning, every 'noon, and every night.
He eats fish 'n' chips
by the pieces, by the baskets, by the tons.

I shake my head and warn him,
"Watch your high blood pressure and cholesterol!"
He laughs and waves his finger,
"Don't be like your mother, baby girl!"

The first thing that he always asks me
with a big smile on his face
is not "how much weight you’ve lost?"
but "how much weight you’ve gained?"

He teases me every time
and I know it's his way of affection.
But I still pout 'n' yell 'n' shout
for I don't need to be reminded of my faults.

But I got,
the impatience, the teasing, the temper
from him and only him,
my beloved annoyance.

How ironic it seems
that it took only a bag
a dull black worn leather bag
to make me realize the truth.

My father is a man,
a human with emotions.
He wants something in his life
just like I've wanted everything from him.

That day I cried.
My spoiled attitude dissipated with my tears.
With sixty dollars in one shaky hand
I said, "Use it, daddy. I don't need no more

"I got all I need
right here with me
I am happy now
I don't need no more.

"You've worked all day
you've worked all night.
just for a smile on my face
which I give you rarely.

"I don't need everything,
I just need you
to be happy with us
and I don't need no more."

做朋友是件多簡單的事
可是培養感情什時變得如此的難阿
我知道當你要重做你一定感到很緊張
可是當你口氣很不好的叫我們不要在你身旁講話時
我卻感到很厭倦你最近的態度
這因該是朋友之間的感覺嗎?
看到你已經在MSN上面了
可是我卻不知要不跟你聊天
你...是否對我感到厭煩?

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呵...才剛剛寫完你就MSN我了...
真是嚇到了
可是你應該不知這個的存在吧
謝謝你關心我們的感受
謝謝你肯拉下臉道歉...因為我一定不肯的
我知道我們可以成為很好的朋友
可是為什麼有時我還是覺得我們合不來阿?

mid-term is starting tomorrow and yet, I'm sitting here studying while the whole country is in crisis up in Taipei. Okay, I'm just going to state straight and flat out that I support President Chen. And the events taken places, the arguments between the two political parties, are enough to irritate me to the beyond. Right now, I don't care what political party you are, I don't care what's your business doing in Taipei, but I do care the fact that you are running down Taiwan just because of an election. Sorry about the gunshot, sorry about everything. But you know, get over it. You are setting people against people, neighbors against neighbors, friends against friends, is this all worth it for the seat of president? I don't think so. All you have done is made me realize how weak the country is held together. This is not a country anymore, it's an anarchy. How in the world is Taiwan able to declare independence if it can't even hold itself together??

alright, got five more chapters of Biology and then read/memorize the first chapter to Constitution and Right.....oh my gosh, I GOTTA STOP PROCRASTINATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got tired of being imbroglio...hey, it's a hard username to type ^^;; Anyway, I'l be switching it to 'arcticflames' like it supposed to be in a couple days. This is just a headup for you guys ^_^ Remember, it'll be www.tabulas.com/~arcticflames

first time that I totally blanked out during a test.....I didn't understand the questions at all....and my friends told me that the test was easy.....crap.....I probably will fail the class...

just one more subject and I'll be fine.....whew....physics......OH MY GOSH I'M GONNA DIE IN THIS CLASS!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for those people who are wondering who the heck I am, I'm imbroglio....but hahaha....nevermind about that. Right now, like I had been known in the past....I'm arcticflames. *bows* Call me arc or arctic or whatever.

Anyway, just check on my bio grade....suck majorly....I knew I shouldn't study for the whole day....but I did...and now, I didn't get anything worthwhile out of it...

hahaha....one of my best friends told me her big secret today.....

one, a medical student four years older than her is trying to date her
two, she likes somebody in our class

hahahaha...it was funny. Once she told me who he is, she talked about him constantly. It's quite obvious to see her in love....oh yeah, she doesn't know it. I just hope that everything will turn out the way it supposed to be. With him confessing his love and such...I would hate to see her having her hope so high up and then get crushed....-.-;; But I think the guy definitely likes her. Why else would he buy dessert for her and ask her out to movie when he already watched that movie already?

oh by the way, they watched "Butterfly Effect" which that friend of mine WAS supposed to watch with us on Thursday. But she was "mourning" over her Calculus grade by eating dinner and watching a movie in her dorm *rolls eyes* oh geez...... Then she bored herself to death for the whole weekend... And if you wanna know, "The Butterfly Effect" was a good movie. Not the best, but the sound effect is GOOD! You gotta watch it in the theatre. And if you know any other good movie, let me know, ok?

Anyway, about myself. I didn't do anything over the weekend except got into several fights with my mom. I didn't intend for them to happen it's just that I had gotten so used to doing things independently and stuff so when she started telling me what should I do I just blew off on her. It was a horrible weekend. At one point during the weekend I even thought of not coming home on the next weekend. But I think I'm going home next weekend still though, I need to patch things up with my mom ^^:; Let's just hope that we'll stop fighting....whew.....

Well, my friend came over tonight, although we had been together for the dinner and the grocery shopping. But we were planning to make some dinner and dessert tomorrow night. We settled on making some rice balls and cream puff *hearts* muah! love those desserts!

okay, talk later, gotta go!

ugghhhh....tuesday is almost the worst day in the either week for me because my schedule is full with class not to mention two labs in the afternoon.

For the biology lab, we dissect a frog. I hate dissection, not the dissection part, but the process of killing the animals. I know it's for our benefits that we learn these skills but I rather think of a better, more merciful death for the frogs rather than having a bunch of freshmen stabbed them in the back several times and die from a pierced heart or something similar to that. Yeah, it was horrible and gruesome, and the needle we used was stuck on his back so we had to get the teacher assistant to help us.

Then after this experiment, there's the physics lab. Physics labs are not even hard, the teacher is just so tedious about the results that we always need to redo some part of the expierment. We were the last ones to leave but still, we left five minutes before normal class got out ^_^

Anyway, I gotta study tonight, so will talk later, bai!

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Asu-chan: hahaha....yeah, I know I shouldn't talk publicly 'bout my friend's secret, but I'm quite happy for her, really really happy. ^_^ And the rice balls....hahaha, I wasn't the one who made them, I made the cream puffs instead ^^