Anyway, my first exam of the semester is coming up next week, actually, it's a week from today. Honestly, I'm looking forward to it. I need to get my mind off all these depressing things I've been thinking lately.
Gosh, for one, things from last year started haunting me again. I remember the cruel words I had said and how awful I felt inside. And I still remember those people who made me said those words. And of course, I'm meeting them soon again for the semester because we are a part of an academic "family." Sorry, I've explained that before and I really don't want to lapse into that story again.
Well, we have a new freshman joining the family and I really really wish that I don't have to see them again afterward. But I still do, because we are all interconnected by our friends, there's no way I can hide from them >_< Ugghh...I just hope I'll have a better time talking to them this year than the last year.
Yes, I'll admit it. I'm afraid of people talking bad behind my back. I know what that's like. It happened to some of my friends before and I don't want to be the next. I am a people-pleaser, and please, just let me please you okay. Just don't find any wrong with me, alright? Because I won't have it from you. Whether you were wrong in the first place or I was, you had already pass my threshold of tolerance. Please, even if we don't like each other. Let us pretend we do. That's fake, but that's life.